September 29, 2009
Last night I worked yet again to feel like myself. The heaviness in my chest that puts oppressive loneliness over my being was chased away with reiki and yoga. Mugwort burning around the house and my friends good intentions helped too. I feel light, my body easily moves from one task to another and my mind enjoys renewed peace. This morning I feeling better, I went straight to the forest.
Like a child escaping a kidnapper I ran to my mother nature. She never fails to absorb the tears and pain of any loneliness. Interesting how it is that I can ease my loneliness so effortless when I get away from people. Even when I went on a solo camping adventure a few months ago, I was not missing human contact. The trees, sun, water, and insects I saw were beautiful entertainers.
Learning this about myself will make things easier. So instead of hoping for kindness from my human family I may just look to nature first. Where there are no walls, no egos, the pain can blow away with the sway of the trees and the flow of clear water. Thank you Creator for your comforting embrace.